It has been a month since I deactivated my Facebook account and four days since I last opened messenger. I needed to take a breather after everything that has happened and found out.
I have been wary of myself, of the things I do, and I am aware that there are a lot of things I should improve on. I had no idea it was that bad. I’m gonna leave it at that. But the point is, I needed to get away from everything to try and look at my life at a different perspective.
At first, I saw how awful I am, just like what they told me. It was bad enough that I was feeling unworthy for the longest time already. Thank God I saw the light eventually. Things are not as awful as it looked. I may have just overreacted. I am a work in progress and there is nothing wrong with that.
But what now?
How do I go back?
Things are different now. Once I go back, I know that he won’t be there anymore. I don’t know, maybe I’m just delaying it. I’m delaying it because I know it would hurt and he wouldn’t care. But to be clear, it’s not just him. It goes to everyone too. It feels different and now more than ever,
I feel like I only have me.