Who would have thought that this skinny little girl would march as a licensed engineer in her graduation?
It has been a crazy ride. I took up Chemical Engineering because my mom suggested it and people were commenting I could do it. I was having second thoughts because I wanted to take up Psychology then pursue law, but I guess the universe has its way of putting things in order.
I started my college year promising myself that I would be a consistent Dean’s Lister. Scratch that, I promised myself that I would graduate with a medal to make my family, especially my parents, proud. I can’t help but laugh at my 16-year old self for saying that. Engineering, to put it nicely, will suck the life out of you. I keep telling myself that the upper batch was just exaggerating. I kept convincing myself that Engineering would be tolerable because I was good at Chemistry and Math. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA at you, 16-y/o Jah. Of course, I was wrong. Just like everybody else, I spent sleepless nights studying and cramming for school requirements. On top of that, I was an officer in an organization. There’s also other things like growing up, dealing with my insecurities, heartbreak and other aspects that help an individual to be a better person. I don’t regret a thing.
All the experiences that I had in college made me who I am today. I realized that setting your priorities and making plans is necessary, but there are times that you should go with the flow as well (especially if you have don’t have a choice anymore). I was always worrying that things may go wrong, that things may turn out to be different than I planned, and it sucked the happiness out of me. I came to realize that worrying doesn’t get me anywhere and that worrying about things I cannot control is just a waste of time and energy. It took me three years, a heartbreak, losing several friends and rejection of an organization I served before I changed. Some people told me that I was too old to change. Nah. It is never too late to start over. (The stories are on my other blogposts, just check them out 😉)
Before this post gets any longer, I offer my sincerest gratitude to the following:
To my dearest parents, for being patient with the bunso and her mood swings, for feeding me with my favorite food, for taking care of me when I was in a wheelchair for months, for supporting all my activities (MTAP, Science Competition, Press Conference, Dance, Drama Club, Newspaper, etc), for loving me even when I get too stubborn, for all the lessons, for the heart-to-heart talks, for the jokes, for everything.
To my sisters, Ate Jobelle for all the free meals, for lowering the volume of the tv when I am studying, for all the prayers, for all the advice; Ate Armine for being a big sister (kahit na feeling bunso siya), being kind to me and for being understanding at times; and of course Ate Sarah, for being the best sister anyone could ask for! Thank you for talking to me even if you’re busy with work overseas, for all the advice, for all the clothes and things you buy me, for all the support. U know it.
To Princess, my cousin turned sister, for being my bestfriend since I was born kasi wala kaming choice. JOKE. Love you!
To the rest of my family (both Mother and Father sides), thank you!!! Special thanks sa mga pinsan ko na may anak na kasi ang cute ng mga pamangkin ko. HAHAHA.
*Note: I type the following as I go. No hard feelings with regards to the order*
To Bianca for being my best person for two years now… who needs a boyfriend when I have you? Can’t wait to catch up!
To (Ate) Janella, for always being patient with me, for pushing me to be a better person and for always reminding me of my faith.
To Cla, Pollen and Emman, for always having each other’s backs in every milestone even if we are miles apart.
To the friends that are in an LDR with me, Gera (Canada) and Giorgio (Lipa lol), thank you for the calls and the talks and the time you spent with me!
To Janne, for being my calm confidant and for trusting me despite my shortcomings. You go, girl!
To Gelo, Ericka, Koshi and the rest of our high school friends for all the fun we shared for our meetups (hello, kailan na po next labas natin?)
To Kuya Ced, Achi Cue, Kuya Jonatz, Kuya Tope and the rest of Ates and Kuyas I gained along the way, thank you for the endless stories and tips in my CHE life.
To my USG family especially Jasmina, Zed, Rox and Mark, thank you for making me realize that there’s no limit to org-life…kasi kinain talaga tayo lahat ng orgs pero ‘di natin napabayaan student life natin. Naks naman!
To my Prose fam Naomi, Gamilla, Matt, Janssen, Pam ++, salamat sa suporta kahit ‘di tayo pare-pareho ng pinaniniwalaan. Mabuhay kayo!
To Eulene and Sugar sa pag-ampon sakin sa Singapore. Ayan tuloy, close na tayo, wala nang atrasan. LOL. This goes to Ginelle and Camille as well!
To people I got close to eventually, Anne, Pol/Jember, Jeezun, Mickel, Reg, Jose, JR, AND MORE *I’M AFRAID I’LL FORGET NAMES IF ISA-ISAHIN KO SORRY* thank you for giving me another chance (wow?) despite the past and the chismis HAHA. Luv u.
To we-all-know-who, thank you for the short time we had. What a huge lesson that was. Even if it did not turn out as I hoped, I’m happy now and I hope you are too.
To everyone who stood by me in the five years of college, to all the friends who are not mentioned here explicitly, I apologize kasi masyado pala ako naging friendly nauubusan na ako ng sasabihin. Pero ang bottomline, salamat! Sana friends pa rin tayo.
To the groupmates I had, both the responsible and freeloaders, thank you for the experience and for helping me increase my tolerance to lies, excuses, and more! For the users, I wish you guys change for the better. It is unfair to get the shortcuts other people worked hard for. Let’s make the world a better place, shall we?
To all barkada’s that I was in and the friends that I had, thank you for all the experiences I had with you. Even if I’m not part of those groups anymore due to irreconcilable differences (awow?), I was happy to get to know you…most of you anyway (oops).
To my Nestlé TF Family, for being supportive as I was reviewing for the board exam and for showing me possibilities of the adult world (HUHU) that I have never realized before. Special thanks to QA and all the other Interns!
To all my organizations and extra-curriculars, Chemical Engineering Society (ChEn), Lasalliance for Peace (LFP), Malate Literary Folio, OTREAS, One in Service, One La Salle (OSOL), For The Kids (FTK), thank you for allowing me to serve you. Thank you for pushing me to do my best so I can serve you more.
To my org outside school—Santiago Youth and the whole of Santiago Chapel— salamat po sa opportunity na maglingkod sa Diyos. Ang dami kong natutunan sa halos isang dekada kong pagsisilbi at sana marami pa tayong ma-inspire na maglingkod. Special mention to Rox, Ma’am Angge, Daren at Carla, hanap na tayo ng susunod na generation ha. HAHAHA
To all my grade school and high school teachers, thank you for molding me and training me for college. Thank you for keeping in touch and for still supporting me in everything that I do. Your students are lucky to have you!
To my college professors, especially Dr. Orbecido for being the best adviser anyone could ask for, for staying with us when we had to start from scratch again, when we had to change our equipment and the thesis itself, and for being supportive of me even if thesis was over. Thank you! I would also like to thank our thesis adviser, Dr. Beltran for helping us to continuously improve, Dr. Bungay, one of the most talented educators I have ever met, for all the lessons both in and out of the classroom, Dr. Belo for being supportive of everyone in CHE and for pushing us to do our best and achieve our goal—Outstanding Thesis, and of course, Dr. Dugos for challenging every CHE student of DLSU. I would like to thank non-CHE professors who have inspired me namely, Dr. Alea and Sir Magsino!
Salamat din pala sa mga naging suki namin sa tindahan at sa mga umupa sa apartments namin, kung ‘di po dahil sa inyo, baka wala po kaming pambayad ng tuition fee.
Last and greatest thanks to God for the endless blessings since I was conceived on earth. Even in the lowest points of my life, His grace endures forever. Even when I was losing faith, when it was hard to pray, when I felt most alone, He was always there for me. And true enough (Nakita mo na ‘to sa twitter bio ng maraming tao), “I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.”
Gusto ko ring mag-sorry sa lahat ng mga natarayan, sinungitan, nasaktan, pinaringgan, pinag-isipan ng masama, hindi pinakinggan, napagtaasan ng boses, nabalewala, hindi inintindi, at iba pang pagkukulang. Karamihan naman sa inyo ay ‘di ko na nakakausap o ‘di ko na kaibigan, pero sorry pa rin. Sana masaya kayo kung nasan man kayo.
I had this dream of changing the world for the better. I am far from that dream, but I am a step closer to that goal. Thank you, DLSU. It has been my pleasure.
Engr. Jahziel Lantin | BS Chemical Engineering | Outstanding Thesis | Summ—obra sa Loyalty Award